Sharing my shiny

After speaking with Fonce I hurried to find Cana. I know he told me to get to sleep but, for once I was not tired so early and I was full of expendable energy. I kissed Lei, washed my face and made the walk from our wagons to Cana’s. I found her outside playing her flute and while I normally would not have interrupted her; tonight I nearly knocked her down with my hug. I hardly let her breath before I began speaking and smashing her peaceful solitude all to bits.

"Guess what? I'm pregnant." I grinned at her.

“I know. Now sit down and quit getting so over excited.” Cana laughed.

I knew all along that Cana had had an idea; it was why I had so often been avoiding meeting her eyes. I had several reasons, or you might say excuses, for keeping it to myself. I wanted to follow a certain protocol. I wanted to be sure Fonce would not take the news badly, that it would not affect my place card at the first fires. I had meant to tell the Ubar next but It was Cana who filled up my heart, I broke the chain to tell her second. The other reason? I took a certain pleasure in holding such a delicate secret, I felt protective over it.

Cana hugged me and told me a little about Lochlan and our voices were quiet for a moment. We are not unusual or special in that we have lost the men we loved, most women on the plains will watch a man they love die at least once. We live a dangerous life; we walk on the edge of a razor. I was lucky for the years I had with Trayu, many were not as blessed as I had been.

"Thank you so much for being my friend Cana, I do not know what I do without you.”

No empty words for her, I meant it. I was still pretty sure being the Ubara was a lonely lot in life and even more so now that she was as alone as I. I promised to come by soon for some dresses that would suit me better. I was too tired by the time we finished talking, to visit the fires and share my news and Lei would be waiting for me

“Good night Cana!" I called as I hurried back to find Lei and get to sleep.

Cana laughed as I left. The sound of it warmed up my soul.

“Be well my friend.”