Lucky to have her

Dear Trayu

I have been good about going out to see people. It is good for Lei, though she tends to gravitate to only a small handful of people. I trust her judgement, perhaps even more then my own. We found a gathering near the stream, a little ways up from where she and I had been looking for herbs and leaves for my teas. She tugged my hand to bring her towards them.

I had the chance to speak with an older Year Keeper, Tayran, his slow way of speaking comforted me and he promised to speak with me further about the story wheel and regaining my clan skills. My story telling skills have been plied upon only the very young and I have always much preferred my little riddles and poems. Nothing that would enthrall an adult but Lei seems to enjoy my games.

Lei was playing her own game with Fonce, I am not sure if he knew it or not. She copied his words a few times, a sure sign that she was annoyed by too much adult talk. She is not always so subtle, our daughter and yet at times she is a little puzzle herself. She was copying him as he built little towers out of stone. I found it difficult to focus on the others when all I wanted to do was watch her. She is searching for something, not a father.. it isn't like that. But she is searching for something, someone to leave an imprint on, do you know what I mean?

She spoke to him, she seemed to pity him for not being as perfect as you are.. were. I still chuckle when I think about the things she said, the way she spoke to him. Will any man ever be as perfect in her eyes as you were Trayu? She told him that in order to be able to fix things as well as you did he would have to work hard and drink much. I was only slightly humiliated. As she spoke I saw Fonce change what he was doing, his towers grew more complicated and your daughter matched him, she never gave up. She made everyone smile. She glimmers when the light falls upon her, did you ever see that?

As I watched the year keeper Tayran stood beside me.. "You are lucky to have her." He said. My heart skipped a little beat and I nodded. Truer words I had never heard. I am lucky to have her. She is my saving grace.

As for me.. I am fine. I am making friends and ready for the move. I am seeing more and more all the spaces you left in my world.. and even more slowly do I let them be filled again.

I love you,

Asria