
And then I heard the humming bell.
Scarlet is the color of lust.
Ibrought my hands up and pressed them hard against my ears. I did not want to hear that bell! I knew it brought the birds and with them.. all the feelings I wasn't facing. I was right. The birds came in a flock of blinding yellow, the color of sunshine, the color of happiness... my pretty yellow birds were a clever joke. They brought me no life, or happiness. They brought the whispers of my dead heart. Trayu.
"No, Asria. The answer is no."
His voice was not sweet or gentle, it was angry and hurt. I uncovered my ears, they did no good shutting out the sounds and the bell swirled around me again, closing me up in its sound. I knew the question he answered. I had been asking him for days now without even realizing it.
"I do not wish to wait!" I shouted at the emptiness, stifling the humming. A cherry tree in the field blossomed into color; it glowed with large ridiculous pink flowers.
"You are not ready." He replied inside my head and now the large absurd flowers withered and died. He was right. I was still trapped under the glass, I was still afraid to break it and run wildly on the ground. I could not move forward if I did not move backward first. This time no one came to save me, no one tried to pull me down.
I did not wake suddenly but slowly, the sun was warming the wagons and I heard the pitter patter of rain on the leather. I lay on my side, not in a red dress, but in my own brown tunic, my gaze fell on my daughter and she smiled.
"Don't cry Mother. The skies are singing for me today."
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