Dear Trayu,
It has been 4 days since you left that morning. You promised to bring me back a herlit and a red flower. "What will I do with a herlit?" I asked you as I watched you dress. Your laughter was infectious. "Train him to protect you while I am away, of course." Little did I know how long you would be away for. I started to climb out of the furs but you stopped me, crawled back into bed with me and kissed my collar bone. I had never been happier.
When they came to tell me what had happened I had been working on your story quilt, I promised you one for every year we were together, remember? One for every year I loved you. We would need a wagon just to hold them all. Lei was climbing on the wheels, ruining the dress she wore and calling out taunts to other children she plays with. She is so much like you.
Today I took Lei and slipped away to the stream, I wanted a little peace and I was tired of the well wishers. I know they mean well, and I do appreciate it but I didn't want anymore sad faces trying to smile at me, trying to cheer me up. You were loved by so many people Trayu, Lei and I will eat for a year on all the meat and treats that have been left for us. Everyone of your friends has given us a share of thier own stores no matter how much I protest. I think I will seek out the elders year keepers and see if I can find another family that could use the extra stores. If you were here you would want to have a party with it all.
While I was at the stream Fonce came to see me and Lei. She was sleeping though, she is so tired these days. I think all the emotion she feels is exhausting for her. He has offered to help us with the move and asked if I needed anything else. I wanted to tell him I needed you. I needed him to go back and change things and bring you home to me. I wanted to shout at the skies for taking you away. Somehow I managed to only quietly say I needed it to be last week. I needed for everything to be all right again. Most men would have said "It will be all right again Asria, you will be fine." And I expected him to say that, I wanted that comfort. But he did not say that, he said he needed the same thing. I was surprised by this and strangely comforted. I was glad I was not the only one who had such irrational thoughts. I think I understand why you liked him so much. He is like you in the way he is not what you expect him to be. You can rest knowing your daughter and I will be fine though the move.
I love you,
Asria
It has been 4 days since you left that morning. You promised to bring me back a herlit and a red flower. "What will I do with a herlit?" I asked you as I watched you dress. Your laughter was infectious. "Train him to protect you while I am away, of course." Little did I know how long you would be away for. I started to climb out of the furs but you stopped me, crawled back into bed with me and kissed my collar bone. I had never been happier.
When they came to tell me what had happened I had been working on your story quilt, I promised you one for every year we were together, remember? One for every year I loved you. We would need a wagon just to hold them all. Lei was climbing on the wheels, ruining the dress she wore and calling out taunts to other children she plays with. She is so much like you.
Today I took Lei and slipped away to the stream, I wanted a little peace and I was tired of the well wishers. I know they mean well, and I do appreciate it but I didn't want anymore sad faces trying to smile at me, trying to cheer me up. You were loved by so many people Trayu, Lei and I will eat for a year on all the meat and treats that have been left for us. Everyone of your friends has given us a share of thier own stores no matter how much I protest. I think I will seek out the elders year keepers and see if I can find another family that could use the extra stores. If you were here you would want to have a party with it all.
While I was at the stream Fonce came to see me and Lei. She was sleeping though, she is so tired these days. I think all the emotion she feels is exhausting for her. He has offered to help us with the move and asked if I needed anything else. I wanted to tell him I needed you. I needed him to go back and change things and bring you home to me. I wanted to shout at the skies for taking you away. Somehow I managed to only quietly say I needed it to be last week. I needed for everything to be all right again. Most men would have said "It will be all right again Asria, you will be fine." And I expected him to say that, I wanted that comfort. But he did not say that, he said he needed the same thing. I was surprised by this and strangely comforted. I was glad I was not the only one who had such irrational thoughts. I think I understand why you liked him so much. He is like you in the way he is not what you expect him to be. You can rest knowing your daughter and I will be fine though the move.
I love you,
Asria
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