Cry for me

I miss you today. I remember the last time there was a water shortage like this and you gave me and Lei your rations. I had no idea what you were doing until you grew ill. I was so angry with you for your foolishness and so much more in love with you. I do not think just any man would put himself at risk so easily for his woman and their daughter. I thanked the skies for you, every day.

Fonce came by and checked on the water barrel, there is enough for Lei and I to get by but not enough to cook with or do much washing up. I wish it would rain, I wish the skies would cry and let fall her tears down upon us.

Tonight I fried up a little of the fresh meat in some fat. I get so sick of stew. The smell brought others over to sit with us and share a bit of our modest meal. I was pleased to have the company. Magda brought over some meat as well and I sliced that thin and added it to the pan over the fire. Laughter could heard for wagons and even Lei was happily dancing around and chattering away. She was telling everyone about her magic boots.

I told riddles to keep everyone guessing at the answers.. I still had not found anyone who could figure out the latest one and we stayed up far too late. Serge was there, but he kept on the edges of the gathering. He looked annoyed by it. How strange is that? Lei fell asleep in my lap eventually and I suddenly missed you. There was ache in my chest that I had not felt in a week. You should have been here, your hand on the small of my back, your laughter joining the others. Your eyes rolling when you could not answer my riddle. I excused myself suddenly and brought Lei inside the wagon, tucking her into my own furs for the night.

Before I slept myself, I brought a covered bowl to Fonces wagon, still hot and greasy, and left it with Gen. Her odd happiness brought my smile back a little and I almost offered her a meal as well. Almost. Messing around to much with a mans slaves was probably a super bad idea. I just left the meal and returned. Tonight I would sleep with my arm curled around my daughter.. my family.