Love wars!

I love the Love Wars! I can't imagine why any Tuchuk, or Turian for that matter wouldn't. I love seeing all the people in their strange and sometimes funny clothes. I like hearing the merchants hawking their sometimes absurd wares. I like the catcalling I hear between men and women and the good natured flirting. There is energy during the days we spend there, mingling with strangers, that I have never felt anywhere else.

I was so excited to get going that I was eager to help hitch up the bosk though I spent more time getting in the way of over protective men then anything else. I have given up trying to convince people that being pregnant and alone is not a deathly ailment. I cherish the concern my friends have for me and my family.

On this journey I would not walk much or ride at all. Instead I would mostly sit on the platform, watching the people behind us, my face flush with anticipation. I had been telling all our friends.. Astar, Mezoo, Fonce and even Rosalita how excited I was to be going. To see all the things to see and, for the first time in my life.. negotiate trade on my own.

Lei and I had been hurrying to gather things to trade, blankets we had made and some pottery. I wanted silk ribbons and cotton batting for pillows. I wanted pieces of wood for stretching leather and a newer kettle. I wanted some flat sheets of copper to make lamps out of and a metal punch to make designs in it. I was hoping as well, to come across some pretty things. I had seen tapestries last year that I had just adored but had never been able to duplicate just the way the Turians had. The year keepers would be meeting with the Turians to discuss important things. I wanted to join them, even if only to listen and learn.

"Will they have wooden dolls?" Lei asked me as she inspected her new, and much less pretty, boots.

"Perhaps, would you like one?" I gave her a curious look. Lei did not often want the same things other little girls wanted, things I would have wanted at her age.

"Yes, please." She said quietly, like it was a secret. I grinned and kissed the top of her head.

"Then we will find one just right for you."

We sat in silence for a bit, my thoughts thick with the impending birth of my son and with the disappointment I was feeling about who would be there. My wishes were not often denied, and I did not normally ask for anything quiet as large as I had asked Fonce. It had hurt to be told no but.. I had come to understand. I supposed, with a sigh, that I would have said no if I were him as well. Maybe it was for the best.. Maybe those first few moments of my sons life are better spent with only Lei and I. Given the time to consider things I almost always saw reason and the other persons point. I simply could not be rushed to such conclusions and certainly not forced.

I am a Tuchuk woman after all. I will see things in my own way, in my own time.